Jan 2nd 2025

One of the hardest lessons I’ve learned since quitting my job in May 2024 is that being a stay-at-home mom is no joke. It is not all rainbows and sunshine. I thought being a mom who worked 40-plus hours outside the home was exhausting, but I’ve discovered I’m more tired now than ever before. By month four, I felt like I was slowly dying inside. Making mom friends? Nearly impossible. My new business wasn’t making money. Bills kept piling up, and our savings were and still are being chipped away. On top of not bringing in a paycheck, I was constantly dealing with a toddler who loved pushing my buttons and a husband who was tapped out after spending his days on the phone for work.

I slipped into a small depression. I became a more reactive mom, a drained wife, and I stopped talking kindly to myself. I wasn’t pouring my energy into my new business the way I needed to.

Then, on December 31st, 2024, I had a moment of clarity at the Broomfield Library. It hit me like a vision—the reason I had made the impulsive decision to quit my career without having a stable income from my business. I realized I was trying to be someone I’m not. I thought I needed material things to be happy, but that’s not who I am! I had been stuck in a career that was supposed to be temporary but became a hamster wheel, with steady income that paid the bills and funded material things I thought I needed to be happy. Over the last six to seven months, I’ve done a lot of inner work. With guidance from the God I believe in, support from my guardian angels, and nudges from the universe, I’ve come to see that’s not who I am. The vision brought with it memories of how the universe had been nudging me, showing me that I was resisting its plan.

It became clear that the universe had been trying to teach me something important: the value of simplicity and being true to myself. Believe me when I say: stop fighting what the universe has in store for you.

I didn’t know then what I know now. I thought my struggle was about being poor, but the universe was teaching me to be smart with money. The lesson was humbling. This is why I believe the universe has placed me where I am today: to give me a second chance. With guidance from God and help from my guardian angels, I’ve been granted an opportunity to reset. Yes, it comes with a hefty debt, but without failure, how can we truly learn?

I wish I wasn’t in this much debt, but I fought against the grain. Now it makes sense. We always find a way out of tough situations and vow never to let it happen again. Yet, if we find ourselves in an even worse situation, it means we didn’t learn the lesson the first time. So how do you learn the lesson? It’s simple: you address the demons you’re battling internally. For the past six to seven months, I’ve been working on mine.

Focusing on my inner self and light has led me to clarity. Clarity is heavy because it involves acknowledging that it’s not just others who wronged you—it’s about taking accountability for your own actions. That’s a hard pill to swallow, but dwelling on the past only prolongs the solution you’re seeking.

Here’s my plan and vision for 2025:

Continue Inner Healing

Without rebooting, restructuring, and letting go of what doesn’t serve me, I will never reach what the universe has destined for me.

Be Kinder to Myself

There’s no purpose in putting myself down.

Embrace My Roles

I am a great mother to my children and a great partner to my husband.

Grow My Business

I believe coloring helps people process emotions, and I want to be a resource for homeschool parents.

Acknowledge My Worth

I am worthy of living an abundant, happy life. I am worthy of attracting opportunities that serve me and my family.

2025 is the year I turn my life around. I will pay off all my bad debt and create an abundant life for my family and me. I’m excited to document this journey every day to keep myself on track. Will you come along with me? Let’s support each other.